outgoing but laidback..that's me!

im a proud member of TIIS- tangina i'm single!haha...

actually, i have to admit i was quite jealous how valentines day turned out to be with my friends. i had two of my friends having "harana" from their special someones, one of them was so surprised i swear i thought she was going to faint. i was quite disappointed with two of my close instructors...they didn't even greeted me..even just once. i was imagining sweet things to happen to me yesterday while all the couple were busy cuddling each other..suddenly, someone opened the classroom door and asked if they could "harana" to someone...it turned out to be vicki, my close friend who received the sweet calling. she recieved the biggest bouquet of flowers in the block. i just smiled and cheered for vicki..oh, i wished it could have been me.

after a few problems i've had with my batch(especilly last week), i got my head cooled off... last monday, 3 of my batchmates and i went for some bonding and we had a talk regarding the batch's strengths and weaknesses... i knew batck then that i had no choice but to accept who they are... i really wanted the bull session/ open forum to continue. i wanted to say everything in my mind and wouldn't care less what they will think of me as a batchmate. i knew that i had to do this for them to be better individuals. i hope it works.

im taking philosophy course right now for preparatory law... i really want to become a lawyer but the past months, my parents keep on insisting that i should take accounting instead. i never really liked accounting, i never even saw myself as an accountant. unfortunately, a father's a bit controlling...what i couldn't understanding why he's forcing me to change my course when he raised me ideally to be a lawyer. i was caught in a crack when we had a fight last new year's eve because he found out i failed one subject (for the first time in my whole life)...

he actually bought a book for accounting two weeks ago assuming that ill take the course, he never really considered the fact that i never liked it. i respected their decisions so i just went with the flow and am getting ready to trasfer within 2 terms. he actually tutored me last Sunday and i literally cried because my mind went blank and for the first time i felt as if i dont know anything. i'm emotionally weak right now,my self-esteem's at its lowest and i just keep on praying that i get thru all of this. so much for "good morning"...

my weekly online learning in engltwo:
1. what difficulties in research have you encountered in the past?
* i had a difficult time mostly finding the "right time" to do the research.. my schedule's so hectic but i hope i'll survive...

2. what tricks have you learned through the past classes to make research easier?
* ask help from those who already did it or ask someone who specializes in the topic.

3. What sources have you read that was useful for your paper?
* most are from the internet and we found a complete thesis about advertising (luckily) unfortunately, its just about one of our subtopics but i think we could get other sources from it.

4. include substantial updates in your own academic learning:
* i finished doing much of the notecards, the outline and the revised thesis proposal

GOD AND THE SPIDER

Author Unknown

Sep 12, 2005





During World War II, a US Marine was separated from his unit on a

Pacific island. The fighting had been intense, and in the smoke and the

crossfire, he had lost touch with his comrades.



Alone in the jungle, he could hear enemy soldiers coming in his

direction. Scrambling for cover, he found his way up a high ridge to

several small caves in the rock. Quickly he crawled inside one of the

caves. Although safe for the moment, he realized that once the enemy

soldiers looking for him swept up the ridge, they would quickly search

all the caves and he would be killed.





As he waited, he prayed, "Lord, if it be your will, please protect me.
Whatever your will though, I love you and trust you. Amen." After

praying, he lay quietly listening to the enemy begin to draw close. He

thought, "Well, I guess the Lord isn't going to help me out of this

one." Then he saw a spider begin to build a web over the front of his cave.





As he watched, listening to the enemy searching for him all the while,

the spider layered strand after strand of web across the opening of the
cave.





"Hah, he thought. "What I need is a brick wall and what the Lord has

sent me is a spider web. God does have a sense of humor."





As the enemy drew closer he watched from the darkness of his hideout

and could see them searching one cave after another. As they came to

his, he got ready to make his last stand. To his amazement, however,

after glancing in the direction of his cave, they moved on. Suddenly,

he realized that with the spider web over the entrance, his cave looked as
if no one had entered for quite a while. "Lord, forgive me," prayed the
young man. "I had forgotten that in you a spider's web is stronger

than a brick wall."





We all face times of great trouble. When we do, it is so easy to forget

the victories that God would work in our lives, sometimes in the most

surprising ways. As the great leader, Nehemiah, reminded the people of

Israel when they faced the task of rebuilding Jerusalem, "In God we

will have success!" [Nehemiah 2:20]





Remember:

Whatever is happening in your life, with God, a mere spider's

web can become a brick wall of protection. Believe He is with you

always. Just speak His name through Jesus His son, and you will see His
great power and love for you.

1) New York City has 11 letters.
2) Afghanistan has 11 letters.
3) Ramsin Yuseb (The terrorist who threatened to
destroy the Twin
Towers in 1993) has 11 letters.
4) George W Bush has 11 letters.

This could be a mere coincidence, but this gets
more interesting:

1) New York is the 11th state.
2) The first plane crashing against the Twin Towers
was flight number 11.
3) Flight 11 was carrying 92 passengers. 9 + 2 =11
4) Flight 77 which also hit Twin Towers, was
carrying 65 passengers.6+5 = 11
5) The tragedy was on September 11, or 9/11 as it
is now known. 9 + 1+ 1 = 11
6) The date is equal to the US emergency services
telephone number 911. 9 + 1 + 1 = 11.

Sheer coincidence..?! Read on and make up your
own mind:

1) The total number of victims inside all the hi-
jacked planes was 254. 2 + 5 + 4 = 11.
2) September 11 is day number 254 of the
calendar year. Again 2 + 5 + 4= 11.
3) The Madrid bombing took place on 3/11/2004.
3+ 1 + 1 + 2 + 4 = 11.
4) The tragedy of Madrid happened 911 days after
the Twin Towers incident.

Now this is where things get totally eerie:

The most recognised symbol for the US, after the
Stars & Stripes, is the Eagle. The following verse is taken from the
Quran, the Islamic holy book:

"For it is written that a son of Arabia would awaken a fearsome Eagle.
The wrath of the Eagle would be felt throughout the lands of Allah and lo,while some of the people trembled in despair still more rejoiced: for the wrath of the Eagle cleansed the lands of Allah and there was
peace."

That verse is number 9.11 of the Quran.

Still uncovinced about all of this..?! Try this and
see how you feel afterwards, it made my hair stand on end:

Open Microsoft Word and do the following:

1. Type in capitals Q33 NY. This is the flight
number of the first plane to hit one of the Twin Towers.

2. Highlight the Q33 NY.

3. Change the font size to 48.

4. Change the actual font to the WINGDINGS

What do you think now?!!

Sometimes, friendship is just about sitting down. You dont have to talk much. You dont have to smile. You dont even to groom your hair or fix your tie. You don't have to impress other to have them.

If you do these, surely many wont notice you. There might even be some that won't like you but remember that friendship isnt about liking your or you liking them- its aboiut being there whether you like it or not.

If you do these, there is one in a million chances that someone will smile at you or sit beside you in that wooden bench. But if they do, never let them pass without knowing their names- those who sincerly smiled are your true friends. Those who smile without expecting you to smile back.

If you do these and still have someone who sits beside you, comfortable and comforting your presence. Never let them go. They are your soulmates- people who stay beside you, saying nothing but end up having the best conversations that you've ever had.

If you do these and have somebody who's also there everyday, make friends with him. He is a keeper- someone who'd be remembering you no matter how far or how long the two of you are apart. Those who have the patience to stick with someone like you will surely be there and will teach you how to stand on your own when he's not.

Friendship is just about sitting down, you dont really have to find it... it simple comes.

i'm currently having my break today..my next class is about 430pm..its a bit boring but i think am going to be okay. i think i should say something bout myself. i was a former CAT officer in high school..its a military course..i just joined it out of curiosity. in my senior year, i became the N-1/ Corps adjutant (we follow the Navy ranks and ensignia), a volleyball varsitarian, a chorale soprano.. (and even prom queens arent a big deal just like in the States, i could say i'm one of the proud ones during prom night) Here in college, nobody thought i had those achievements because i dont appear to be any near the characteristics of a tomboy..

months ago, i joined ROTC..another, more advanced military course.. i dont even know why the hell i joined.. i had some difficult times especially adapting with their dress codes etc. so i had a bunch of complaints because i dont seem like i'm having a training. (i dont know if they want me to turn into a tomboy or what...)i really like the fun in acting carelessly while swimming in the mud or running until i drop but sometimes i dont know if i still want to continue such. anyway, my training finishes early June..and i'm still thinking if this is what i really want.

I just finished my classes about 2 hours ago and i get to touch a real human brain. Its cold and feels like clay. pretty astonishing how a simple, 1 kilo brain could be so complicated.

I just learned that men have a bigger thalamus (a part of the brain that controls eating, drinking and having sex..)than women. *winks*. Their mental capability also deteriorates faster than women and have a faster degree in losing brain cells.

Well, not that am biased or anything bout men but i guess you can't really blame him for thinking sex about 287 times a day.

Oh well...

i just had the chance to fix my account here...i also joined a couple of communities so i could interact a bit... i hope that i get to find friends here..

about my day:
im goin out later to school (La Salle), actually im quite bored and i didn't really want to go..but i have a clumsy test to attend to. i was never the type of person who really keeps journals or her day updated so i hope i could continue this journal thing cause i find it a bit "amusing"... anyway, feel free to give your comments and dont mind bout the engl2 thingings, they're for my online projects...thanx!

my weekly online learning in engltwo:
1. what difficulties in research have you encountered in the past?
* nothing much, i just had a little bit of a hard time thinking of a good topic and thesis statement. My topic is about advertising, i figured that my partner and i could have lots of resources for that. The only difficulty i think we could have is setting a good and unique argument from it. Advertising is a widely used topic for research especially here in La Salle since we're so involved with media development. Yesterday, my partner decided to stick with the common subtopics and just makes good arguments through it. I asking advices from my friends in ORGCom if they could help us find other suitable sources for this research. And oh, i had a mild headache just for thinking arguments for it.. I hope its worth it.

2. what tricks have you learned through the past classes to make research easier?
* well, i was actually getting ready for since since the online enrolment. I figured that we could really use a lot of time making this research so i just a 1 class for wednesday and friday so i could help in gathering enough resources for this. i also read in the manual to write a time table and to make a good bibliography so I'm practicing it right now.

3. What sources have you read that was useful for your paper?
* i had this article from highschool where my teacher wrote the actual meanings (body languages etc) used in advertising. I had an media class last year so it think that should be quite a help.

4. include substantial updates in your own academic learning:
* I've just joined the bandwagon and i wrote another topic suggestion if you would like to have a look on it. we already made one yesterday and i think my partner had already posted it for you- the one that had the thesis statement: Advertising is equal to selfish money making. i had another right here:

TOPIC: Gender discrimination in Mass Media (Advertising)
THESIS STATEMENT: Advertising dictates women inferiority to men (not that am a man hater or something)

1. What is Advertising? How does it affect society?
2. A person can live without television, radio and newspapers but can it live without advertising?- the significance of it to society.
3. How are women portrayed in it? Physical posture? Characteristics? Attributes in promoting certain products?
4. ADvertising dictates the "ideal" physical appearance of women (being thin etc.)
5. Advertising provides tension and stress to women psychologically
6. The target of Advertising--women
7. DOes Advertising really show the true status of womanhood?

* we would appreciate it so much if you could have suggestions..thanx!

i had a dream..
i was sitting here before the sunny skies
before the green grass, in a wooden park bench
humming with the rhythm of bird chirps
with the melodic movement of butterflies
under the arms of cherry blossoms swaying with the wind

i had a dream...
i was reading my book when i felt something moving
against the cool breeze,across the rays of the sun
i smelled a sweet scent complementing wild flowers
i looked up and there was you.

i had a dream...
you smiled at me and touched my face softly
it rained suddenly and i was in your arms
you knew i was sick, protected me from the raindrops
under the cherry blossoms we stayed, under your arms i prayed

i had a dream...
the rain wouldn't stop
it was cold as i laid beside you
took of your jacket, made it a blanket
to invite the warmness you can only provide
you're all the protection i ever needed

i told you i felt sleepy
you told me not to worry
that you'll be just there the next time i open my eyes
it was truly the best time of my life.

i opened my eyes...
i see you lying beside me in a big white bed
before the sunny skies with the window view of that wooden park bench
with birds visiting, pecking at the glass window
with the melodic dance of my hair with that soft wind
with the petals of cherry blossoms waving at our window

i opened my eyes...
and saw your angelic face, mesmerized by well carved wrinkles
by your well groomed hair, shining white and gray
i touched your cheeks, still reddish but worn
i placed my head onto your chest and heard that heartbeat
the same music that accompanied me under the cherry blossoms
i suddenly felt that weak arm embracing me
i looked up and there was you-smiling

i woke up...
a woman approached us along with our children and grandchildren
and i quickly remembered the decision we both had
bestowed with the fact of no survival and choice of eternal life
life in the hands of God and in your embrace
i knew it was time.

i opened my eyes...for the last time
i saw them saying goodbyes to us
you laughed and said take care
i felt afraid and i knew you felt it
you pressed my hand and whispered
a smile lit my face
i love you dearly and eternal
i, then, said my farewells
i rested onto your chest once again.

forever..
we agreed to shut it down
we agreed never to leave ones side
and it slowly felt hard to breathe
the harder it is, the more i felt you arms around me
you kissed my forehead, i kissed you lips
we looked at each others' eyes for the last time

slowly..
it felt cold as i laid beside you
you took a blanket, your face never saddened
to invite the warmness you can only provide
you're all the protection i ever needed

i told you i felt sleepy
you told me not to worry
that you'll be just there when i wake up- once again
those where truly the best words of my life.

it ended..
with a memory
with the last words you said to me
more memorable with cherry blossoms
or the green grass and the wooden park bench
or the rhythmic humming of bird chirps
or the melodic movement of butterflies
more graceful than the cool winds
those words that made living so easy
words speaking for themselves
words over words:
SEE YOU IN HEAVEN.